(to read the previous parts of this blog series go to the Job category on the right)
So time was ticking away faster than I thought it would and before I knew it, I had been laid off for a whole month, then before I could blink, it was the 4th of July. I still had not told my son about the layoff and it was starting to weigh heavily on me. It's not that I wanted to keep it a secret, I just didn't want to cause him any stress or worry, he has enough to worry about.
I also had to hear a lot of shit from a particular family member, who said that I was being ridiculous but hey, I'm a mom and I was doing what I felt I had to do.
So the 4th of July came and went without my having told him. And that same family member had threatened to bring it up on the 4th and tell my son, but that never happened and we all enjoyed a nice day.
In my head, what I wanted to do was to sit down and talk to my son about the situation adult to adult, and explain that we will be ok for a while and not to worry, bla bla bla - but that's not what ended up happening.
I ended up just blurting it out that weekend on Sunday morning. It was building up so much that I just blurted out that I had news he actually guessed what it was. So much for planning the conversation. So there it was - now everyone knew and just as I expected, it did change everything.
It changed things because now it was a black cloud over us, at least over me. Now everything we did, any time we wanted to go anywhere, out to dinner, out to lunch, or buy something, the fact that I was laid off was in the back of our minds, and rightfully so, I suppose. It really was time to be more frugal, and something that we all have to deal with as a family. But it made things suck just a little bit, there was now an overall sucky-ness in the air and it's still there, at least for now.
Now everything I do, I think about the fact that I am laid off. It's all about 'should I do that', 'can I afford that' and it's all about planning for the future. When you have a significant financial shift, you start really looking at things. For example, for me, I started to think about about ways to save on my electric bill, and what can I cut back on? And, really, we should all be thinking about these things regularly in our day to day lives, but now it wasn't a question of casually thinking about it - it was a mission. I share this with you because you may find yourself in the same boat one day. I now look for ways to save and to spend less.
next week Losing your job part 4.
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It's me, just trying to get by.