Wow - I forgot how painful job hunting is.
One thing I am happy about is that I kept my skills up to date. If there's one thing you all should do, you must keep up with technology. If you don't, you will not be competitive. It really is that simple.
So I have been aggressively job hunting. Every day it's the same thing; get up, have a cup of coffee or two or three, and hit the online job sites.
Many of you have been asking me where I have been looking so I'll tell you: EVERYWHERE - here are a few:
I have not registered with any agencies as of yet but that will be next. Right now I am applying for jobs that I am way over-qualified for. If you asked me if I would ever do such a thing before I was laid off, I would probably have said no way. When you have to support your family, you do what you have to do and that's that.
Job hunting now feels like a job to me in itself. I'm dedicated to it, I commit to it each day, I give myself goals. However, I am a volunteer!
I go online each day, several times a day, looking for a job. With each click I pray that the perfect job for me appears in the listings. Of course, it does not, but I have faith that something will be there in the future for me.
I look at everything to do with my skill set from administrative work, to content writing to design to accounts receivable and accounts payable. That is another good thing that you all should do - have varied skills.
Just imagine right now that you have lost your job. Can you live without your income and for how long? What about your bills? What will you pay first? What adjustments are you prepared to make?
And then there's just the added stress of thinking about money every time you do anything.
I certainly know that things could be so much worse. I realize the things that I do have, and I am thankful. However, that doesn't take the sting out of it.
At this point I am in a 'wait and see' mode with my work situation. Things have gotten tense around here with the knowledge that the budget is going to be tight.
If you have experienced job loss, you know what I mean. That black cloud is over me and it's not going anywhere and it hasn't even moved at all.
Things are going to start to happen, expenses will outweigh income, savings will be depleted, credit cards will be maxed out and then it will be Christmas :(
Hey, I'm not trying to be negative - just real. I know what is coming and I'm doing my best to stay ahead of it.
I start each day with my coffee and job hunting online. There aren't many good part time jobs out there. But, I'll continue to search, and to try to find ways to save and cut back on expenses. I'll look for both web work as well as what I call 'regular' work. I am on Monster.com, Indeed, Simply Hired, RewardingWork.com (for caregivers), Craigslist, and more. Something's gotta give, right?
My next move will be to register with some temp agencies. Since I have an Accounting background, as well as Administrative, Web design, Content Writing and more, I can actually register with many different agencies. The fact is, until I have a regular stream of web design jobs, I have to work part time. It sucks, but it's my reality.
Everything is unknown right now. I don't know what lies ahead. We'll see what happens. In the back of my mind I think that something will fall into place but that's my positive thinking. It may or may not happen.
I'll check back in December and let you know how it's going.
New Blog series starts tomorrow.
As of now, I've been laid off for 2 1/2 months. It is getting a little more stressful around here with the dark "JOBLESS" cloud hanging over us. But every now and then we can move it out of the way to enjoy the summer. It always comes back though. I do intend to enjoy the summer and try not to worry until September. If you know me personally, you know that I am always worried - but I'll try not to be.
Now I'm looking at our expenses and utilities to see how we can be more efficient, if you know me, you can imagine how I must be driving everyone crazy with that one!
I have been looking for work but there's really not much out there for part time or work at home. Let's see, there was a job for a dock worker, some entry level sales positions for insurance companies (SO not me), a job for a cafeteria worker, a dental hygienist, and some nursing jobs. So I continue to focus on my web business. I have two design jobs going on right now but would love to supplement that in the future.
Recently someone asked me what I do for a living, and I just said that I do web design. I didn't get into the long story of the MANY years that I worked in the newspaper business and was laid off. It was in the back of my mind but I didn't mention it.
The whole idea of being laid off is changing, it's becoming more real and more urgent. I have my many spreadsheets of different 'what if' scenarios and I look at them every other day trying to come up with a perfect plan.
Sadly, I won't be returning to my studies unless I get a scholarship and that is a bitter pill. But it's what I have to do. I will miss school but I'll get back to it someday! There are lots of hard decisions that have to be made and that's what I'm doing.
next week Losing your job part 5 - the wrap up
thanks for reading, I welcome your
(to read the previous parts of this blog series go to the Job category on the right)
So time was ticking away faster than I thought it would and before I knew it, I had been laid off for a whole month, then before I could blink, it was the 4th of July. I still had not told my son about the layoff and it was starting to weigh heavily on me. It's not that I wanted to keep it a secret, I just didn't want to cause him any stress or worry, he has enough to worry about.
I also had to hear a lot of shit from a particular family member, who said that I was being ridiculous but hey, I'm a mom and I was doing what I felt I had to do.
So the 4th of July came and went without my having told him. And that same family member had threatened to bring it up on the 4th and tell my son, but that never happened and we all enjoyed a nice day.
In my head, what I wanted to do was to sit down and talk to my son about the situation adult to adult, and explain that we will be ok for a while and not to worry, bla bla bla - but that's not what ended up happening.
I ended up just blurting it out that weekend on Sunday morning. It was building up so much that I just blurted out that I had news he actually guessed what it was. So much for planning the conversation. So there it was - now everyone knew and just as I expected, it did change everything.
It changed things because now it was a black cloud over us, at least over me. Now everything we did, any time we wanted to go anywhere, out to dinner, out to lunch, or buy something, the fact that I was laid off was in the back of our minds, and rightfully so, I suppose. It really was time to be more frugal, and something that we all have to deal with as a family. But it made things suck just a little bit, there was now an overall sucky-ness in the air and it's still there, at least for now.
Now everything I do, I think about the fact that I am laid off. It's all about 'should I do that', 'can I afford that' and it's all about planning for the future. When you have a significant financial shift, you start really looking at things. For example, for me, I started to think about about ways to save on my electric bill, and what can I cut back on? And, really, we should all be thinking about these things regularly in our day to day lives, but now it wasn't a question of casually thinking about it - it was a mission. I share this with you because you may find yourself in the same boat one day. I now look for ways to save and to spend less.
next week Losing your job part 4.
thanks for reading! Comments are welcome!
So, there I was, laid off. I still got up and started the coffee at 5:30. I still sat down at my computer to start my day at 6:00. I still felt like I had to get to those emails and start those projects that I knew had to get done. But guess what? I didn't have to! It was a very strange feeling. It was a little unsettling, of course.
I still had not told my son or certain other family members about the layoff, for lots of different reasons. I didn't want to hear anything that anyone had to say - not at that point. The wound was too fresh. I just wanted to sit back and regroup and let my mind wrap itself around this new situation. I certainly didn't want my son to worry and since it was right before summer, I felt like telling him would ruin his summer. I knew I had to tell him but I struggled with it. If you know me personally, you know why. I also knew that I would not be able to go out and work full time and do the whole career thing again, not with my son's health situation. I had a lot to think about.
So after a few days of feeling like a fish out of water, I decided this was a good time to focus on my web site, get it updated and seriously think about a web design business. My mind was happily racing and I was excited to get started. I was ready and determined not to stop until the site (this site) was ready to go.
I worked on it every day, I had a goal, a purpose and a reason to get up and sit at the computer and WORK! In the back of my mind I was thinking; how I would market myself, and asked myself 'will I make money at this?' So many questions were flying around in the back of my mind.
Once the word got out that I actually had free time and suddenly I had some requests for things, for logos, for websites, advice, design work. HOORAY! That felt good.
But at some point the emotion went from that exited relief, to an excited fear. Questions continued in my head, can I do this, should I do this, will I make it, what if I don't make it?
However, those of you who know me, know that one thing I am very good at is picking myself up and getting back on track. I don't wallow - I just keep going. Because if I keep going, I'm doing something to help my cause and right now I'm muddling along, feeling that fearful excitement. A few jobs have come my way so that's good.
So at this point I was laid off for about 3 weeks and life had not changed much. And I still had not told my son.
next week part three! if you relate to any of this series, please comment!
part one was posted on July 11
series continues each Thursday
By now you know that I was laid off. This multi-part blog is about what losing your job does to you, and it's not all bad, initially.
This is about the emotions that follow losing your job. It's about the feeling that you get when suddenly BAM! it's over. It's about hope and being relentless in the pursuit of stability. It's about thinking WHAT NOW! It's about wishing you were independently wealthy.
So when I was laid off my first emotion was relief, yes relief. I was happy that I didn't have to do that job anymore and that I could walk away. My role had been morphing back and forth between two things and I was not liking it lately. However, I would continue to do my very best as long as I had my job.
I had a lot of irons in the fire, the future held lots of projects, and I had a full agenda right through the fall, and so I breathed a very little, teenie, tiny, little sigh of relief. In the back of my mind, I was glad that someone else would have to make it all happen, or not. I just knew it would not be me.
It was also right before summer and I thought, 'hell, I can use a break and I'll take the summer off to regroup'. So I left my job feeling okay with things and I basked in that feeling for a few weeks. I felt like this was a good time to seriously get my web business going and I was glad to have more time to spend with my son. So I was okay, for now.
Part 2 next, stay tuned...
It's me, just trying to get by.